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Dear secret diary that is public,
He orders his usual drink - straight bourbon on ice – from the bartender with an air of nonchalance that belies the exhaustion he's feeling after another long night of performances. As he waits for his drink, he lights up a cigarette, holding it between two fingers in a way that draws attention to its elegant curve against his lips as he takes slow drags.
Picking up a cigarette from behind the counter, he lights it with an air of practiced ease - his fingers deftly maneuvering around the lighter's flame. The smoke curls lazily from between his lips as he takes a slow drag, holding it inside for just a moment before releasing it in a graceful stream that dances through the air and disappears into the dim light above them.
The smoke curled lazily around him as he took a deep drag, letting the calming burn fill his lungs while he watched people around him through half-lidded eyes.

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Dear secret diary that is public,

AC 15
April 2025
Dear secret diary that is public,
Why being happy when you can do things in Blender?
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
In this house, we love and appreciate Wyll.

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emotions
WHOA FOR YOU
your pain
your grief
PIERCING THROUGH MAH HEART
i wanna drink it in
LIKE IT'S MAH LIFE ESSENCE

10th March 2025
Dear secret diary that is public,
Gave mah man TEEF.

5th March 2025
Dear secret diary that is public,
He was already perfect before, it's hard to improve.
But ...
March 2025
Dear secret diary that is public,
if friend, why food shaped???
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Dear secret diary that is public,

16. August 2024
the moonlight in his teeth
when i see you i stop to breathe
you always give me pleasure
when the moonlight bathes your teef
it's mah biggest treasure
♡
credits for the title goes to
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Everyone on Neopets is 40 years old.
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arch in da moonlight
you arch your back
it stirs mah soul
through this crack
it fills mah hole

22. February 2025 - 00:32
Dear secret diary that is public,
Gave up modding, only working on this shitty website now. jk, unless...
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
You are so beautiful... And you will be beautiful forever. Thank you for trusting me.
22. February 2025 - 00:32
Dear secret diary that is public,
This is it. The hopeless dream dreamt by all of my kind.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Everything will be ours. Everything.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
You will NOT leave this table until you eat your Dadaism!
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Everything is moving at a grinding pace. I feel like I will live thousands of hours every day.
22. February 2025 - 00:32
Dear secret diary that is public,
<Flags>
<UUID>ba298c56-26b6-4918-d49b-6661d368d869</UUID>
<Name>ORI_State_DatingAstarion</Name>
<Description>
This character has started on the path
to a relationship with Astarion.</Description>
<Usage>4</Usage>
</Flags>
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Every step we walk trails blood. Killing is an instinct for us. I respect you for that.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
We share a palace, share power, live lives eternal in each other's arms. What more could anyone want?
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Life as the Vampire Ascendant is busier than I expected. There's my lair to decorate, spawn to recruit, a domain to protect. I'm exhausted
February 2025
Dear secret diary that is public,
A wise person once said:
omg ra, i'm crying, you are too nice
your code is yours, yes you reuse it, no it's not cheating
05. February 2025 - 18:53
Dear secret diary that is public,
Let's dive into the fascinating world of vampire bat urine!
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Shut up. You don't know what it was like. You never will.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
responsibly selfish
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
The problem with what Cazador has done is that he did it to me.
23. November 2024 - 20:36
Dear secret diary that is public,
I forgor this existed.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
The man of your dreams, the hope of him, is your own worst enemy.
07. November 2024 - 01:22
Dear secret diary that is public,
cheeky lil pub
don't make decisons for me
Summer 2024
Dear secret diary that is public,
Completely modded Astarion out of my game
jk unless
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Dear secret diary that is public,
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Dear secret diary that is public,
This may be a beginning, not an end. I can see myself now. Lord, King, Master.
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Dear secret diary that is public,
The important thing is I am doing wonderfully. Finally having a life that's worth living. No, power isn't everything. But it is an awful lot of fun.
- Astarion
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Dear secret diary that is public,
Bought myself, uuuhm... A bag!
14. April 2024 - 17:54
Dear secret diary that is public,
I don't know how exactly it happened, but I fucked up my game files.
Like ... I never downloaded any Patch 3 files. But in the loading menu, it shows me the typical Patch 3 warning of which mods are missing, AND I even saw the Patch 3 bug that doesn't let you click through doors. THIS IS MADNESS. I'm slowly go insane.
At least I have enough chocolate milk. But will chocolate be enough to keep me sane?????????